And now, how to get those spirit back?

Have you ever prepared something so seriously? Have you ever wanted something so bad? And what will be happened to you when that “something” is cancelled? You may blame everyone. But How if you just one of them? Just because of stupid reason that you can not understand completely. Yeah.. I’m one of the b***h. Now, I really feel not good. I do not have any spirit to make another plan. I JUST WANT TO GET SOME OH NO.... MUCH SLEEP. Where I don’t need to do the anything and when I wake up it’s already December. Huaammm................But I realise the time won’t waiting! When I wake up I will just found the mess I’ve made.

Sorry my friend, deep down in my heart I also hate my self. I really want to make the time left worth living. And now I confuse. My dreams, my plans, my ambition; all of them use to make happy.. But now I feel they start to kill me..Do I dream too much? Time heals. I know it. But I need those spirit back.... :(