CROSS MY FINGERS

Ceritanya Sabtu kemarin jadwalnya saya buat tes IELTS. My first IELTS test ni... I paid $180 for this test. Jumlah yang menurut saya ga dikit sih.. (ya iya lah wong materiality saya cuman goceng).

Berhubung mau tesnya di Kuningan yang notabene jauh dari kantor n kosan, jadi daftarnya akhirnya nitip teman yang ngantor di Kuningan. Sebelumnya dah mastiin dulu ke information-nya boleh ga nitip n boleh ga kalo pas tes ntar ga bawa KTP asli, soalnya KTP nya udah expired n masih dalam proses perpanjangan. Kata petugasnya no problem. Bawa employee ID jg gpp. Yang penting ada fotonya. Tp hasilnya bakal dihold sampe KTP asli jdnya. Ooouuww.... beres lah kalau begitu. Bisa pake employee ID. Soalnya saya ga punya paspor atopun SIM. Yahhh...poordotcom emang... ;p

I don’t know why tp yang jelas bukannya cpt2 ambil bukti daftarnya ke teman yg dititipin tapi malah baru ngambil hari Jumat alias H-1. Soalnya mikirnya ga kan ada apa2 lah.... Dan bener aja.. emang ADA APA2! Di bukti daftarnya distepler skalian aturan buat tesnya. Salah satunya “You must bring with you to the test the original of the ID quoted on the application form; photocopies are not acceptable. Candidates who produce ID other than that stated on the form or who do not have the original of their ID will not be able to take the test on that day”. Waduh kok kalimatnya terasa kejam yah. Kayanya tegas sekali. Coba nelp ke tempat testnya buat nanyain lg tp ga da yang angkat. Ya iya lah wong hari Jumat itu lg public holiday.

Krna udah bingung akhirnya nelpon kakak saya yang selama ini emg saya angkat buat jadi PIC gadungan buat ngurus KTPnya. Ada ga bukti perpanjangannya or apalah yang bisa dipake bukti buat besok. Sayangnya sebagai PIC ternyata urusan KTPnya masih disubkon juga ke temennya dia yg saya ga kenal sama sekali. Terus temennya itu ditelpon ga ngangkat2 jg. Mo disamperin ga bisa karena kakak saya lagi diBandung. Haduhhh...

Mulai pusing jadinya... Apa lagi kalau dipikir2 emang deg2an sekali buat test besok. Brasa blm siap. Tapi kalau ditunda terus sepertinya bakal susah juga. Kedepannya dikantor juga masih sibuk. Jadi ga yakin bisa lebih siap lagi. Pas lagi pusing2nya tiba2 kakak saya nelpon ngabarin kalau temennya dah bisa dihubingin dan ternyata KTPnya udah jadi. Dia yang lupa mulu buat ngabarin. Yeeee....!

Niatnya sore mau belajar IELTS lagi tp terpaksa malah jadi jemput KTP ke Bekasi. Mahal pula ongkos taksinya Kuningan-Bekasi-Sunter. Hiyaaaaa! Setelah dapat KTP kok tetap berasa ga tenang yah? Mungkin karena udah grasa-grusu dan panik dari tadi. Jadi masih berasa deg2an. Apalagi no ID di KTPnya juga berubah. Bsk bakalan jadi masalah ga ya? Kan berarti beda ama yang dipake buat daftar? Haduuuhh... Pusing2 akhirnya milih tidur aja.

Besok paginya alias Sabtu pagi cabs ke Kuningan buat testnya. Sampe di bagian registrasi bener aja ditanyain napa KTP nya beda. Tp ternyata ga ribet. Mereka juga ngerti wong namanya dah expired ya kudu diganti. Mereka cuman copy lagi KTP yang baru abis itu udah selesai. Lah... napa kmrn saya sampe grogi banget yah mikirinnya....

Tesnya sih ga bisa dibilang gampang yah. Hehheheh... Listeningnya lumayan susah. Apalagi selama ini saya terbiasa dengan listening model TOEFL. Writtingnya agak2 menjebak kayanya pertanyaannya. Trus writingnya berhubung sering nulis di blog jadi ga masalah si ama mengarangnnya. Tp ga tau de dari segi tata bahasanya dah bener apa belum. Jadi kesimpulannya yang bisa yang mana yah???hahahhaha...

Terakhir speaking test. Ternyata kebagian yang jam 15.20. Waduh ini kan baru jam 12. Dari pada bengong akhirnya cabut ke STB one. Bisa nonton shrek dulu. Hahhaha... Nungguin filmnya saya milih nongkrong di bilik toilet . Ngapain?? Bljr speaking!! Hampir 20 menit ngomong2 sendiri di toilet. Semua topik yang kepikiran diomongin. Untung toiletnya sepi. Berasa dah mantabh ne buat tesnya. Uhuuyyy!!

Jam sth 3 udah nyampe lagi di tempat test. Ternyata jadwalnya dimajuin. Baru nunggu 10 menit udah disuruh naik n nunggu didepan ruang interviewnya. Dan ga tau kenapa saya GROGI ABIS!! Belum pernah saya gugup kaya begini. Pas interview buat kerjaan aja ga begini. GUGUP TERUS sampe nama saya dipanggil n saya harus masuk buat test. Yang namanya speaking kalau dah gugup yah hasilnya jadi jauh dari yang diharepin. Ngomongnya jadi ga beraturan. Yang lebih parah waktu dikasih topik di kartu. Ga kepikiran sama sekali. Jadi terpaksa ngarang. Ngarangnya pake acara ngaco n nyinggung perasaan interviewernya pula sepertinya. Haduuhhhh...

Pas balik jadi kepikiran. Kenapa ya tadi bisa begitu. Apa karena efek dari kmrn emang udah grasa-grusu, ga tenang n deg2an ya? Jadi masih kesimpen terus dibawah sadar? Harus diakuin lah emang kurang persiapan. Baik secara administratif maupun technical. Hahahhahahha...

Tapi yang namanya udah lewat yah mau diapain. Mau nangis 7 hari 7 malam juga ga kan ngebantu apa2. Tapi selama hasilnya belum keluar boleh kan yah ngarep yang terbaik?? Yah I will cross my fingers for the result, since that’s the only thing I can do right now. Everything can be happened. So dari pada pusing2 n sedih2 saya pilih buat berdoa aja. :)

Traveling chp: TIDUNG

Honestly, I barely had information about this island before. I know the island is one from several islands in Kepulauan Seribu but I don’t have much information about it. However, a few months later some online media gave a travelling review about this island. And the review seems like attracting some of my friends. As they suggested, we finnaly plan our trip to Tidung Island.
Like always happens when we plan a trip, we always consider money as one of the most important point. We think that is the art of doing a trip. Hahhahah.. Based on information from some blogs and also a friend, we planned the itinerary and then start the trip with pray and conviction;p

Day One

Our meeting point is Marina Harbour. The Harbour for Tidung Island is no 21. The island can be reached in 1.5 hours by using Krapu boat. It cost you around IDR 30,000. However, to get to Marina Harbour you need to pay IDR 10,000 as an entrance ticket to Ancol. Hemmmm....
When we arrived at Tidung we immediately contact our CP. The CP help us for accomodation preparation. We stayed at a lodge that cost us IDR 250,000/night. The lodge has quite proper facilities like bed, television, bathroom, mineral water and also air condition. It can accomodate up to 10 people. So the price will be so cheap if you can arrange a group of people to share the lodge. Beside that, you can also rent a bicycle for IDR 15,000 per day. Bad for me, I don’t know how to ride a bike! As the solution I chartered a pedicab ;p.
Our plan in 1st day is to visit Tidung Kecil island. There is a bridge connecting these two island. So you can reached this small island easily. The price of food in this island relatively cheap. We only need to pay IDR 10,000 for fried rice as our lunch. Heemmm.. When we were in the middle of our lunch, two kinds came to us. Both of them are girls. At first they look so shy and didn’t “asked” a lot. So we welcome them as part ot the team. We give them some snacks, take some pictures of them and then asked them if they know beautiful spot in Tidung Kecil.
These two girls finnaly guided us during our trip in Tidung Kecil. However, seems like there are some urband legend about this little island. Nobody lives there and based on their information there are some cemeteries there. Hiiiii!!!! These two girls guided us to the end of the island. Not many visitor came to that part. It was only us at that moment. Many visitor just visit the side beach of Tidung Kecil.
To get the end of this island we need to do “little” trekking. A little bit exhausted actually but it’s worthed at the end! The beach is so beautiful and calm. Nobody there except us. Love it so much! The bad part is only one. The kids keep telling us about the urband legend. Uuuugghh.... The conclusion is: the island is spooky. Hiiiii!!!! At the end of our trip to Tidung kecil, we gave the two little girls IDR 20,000 ;p
In the afternoon we went to the west beach (Tidung kecil lies in east side). It’s beautiful, but it think tidung kecil is better;p
At night we plan to have roasted fish as our dinner. We spent IDR 40,000 only to have 2kg of fish ready to eat. Hemmmm... At dinner, the two girls bring 1 companion, their brother! Thanks God we order enough food to eat. The 2kg fish enough for 10 people. Yuhhuuuu.... J When we went back to the lodge, the girls want to spend the night in our lodge. Wow, I think they started to be annoying... However, we sais no to them. Sorryyyy...

Day 2
In the morning some of my friend went to see the sunrise while I preferred to enjoy the holiday by waking up late. Hehheheh... At 7am I joined the group. The bridge is of of the most beautiful spot in Tidung actually. We take a lot of pictures there. This morning, we also went to the north beach. You can reach the beach by riding your bike and then continue with trekking accross the coconut farm.
The other activity you can do in Tidung is snorkling. You only need to pay IDR 20,000 – 25,000 to rent the snorkling equipment. But if you want to get the best spot for snorkling you need to rent a small boat which cost you about IDR 250,000.
The schedule for the boat to marina harbour is only once a day. Therefore, we need to compete with the other visitors since the capacity of the boat is only around 20. If you can not catch the boat, you can have a ferry as an alternative. But boat to Marina harbour is more comfortable. One suggestion, do not ever take a line in front of the counter when you want to by the ticket. Just sit on the chairs that have been prepared. The queue number will be distributed based on your seat. So, make sure you sit on the front row ;p
For a place that only took 1.5 hours from Jakarta with a very affordable price, I think Tidung offers more than you expect.

THAT PLACE ALWAYS GIVES ME A STORY

I started that day with some plans. Dimulai dengan gajebo-nya rencana buat survey tempat ulang tahun sampai rencana ke Depok but on the way all of them get cancelled. Jadilah siang menjelang sore di hari Sabtu kelabu sedikit pusing mau jalan kemana. Considering that I’m not kind of person who like to spend the wiken just by staying at my room, I start googling what are the places most people visit kalau lagi jln2 sendirian. Yah emang ga selalu bisa ngandelin orang lain bukan...;p Sedikit pusing nyari tempatnya. Karena mall2 uda pasti dicoret dari list. Not kind of mall person nih.hehehhe... Bermodalkan info dari internet plus sdkt niat (hehehhe) kayanya seru juga kalo ke pasar baru. Napa pasar baru? Slain belum pernah muter2 disana (yea..yea... you may laugh...) klo ga salah didepannya ada halte busway. Jadi klo mo lanjut jln lagi bisa hemat. Ho ho...
The problem is, I have no idea how to get there. Hehhehe... bermodalkan ingatan klo pasar baru itu ga jauh dari kosan, akhirnya dari kosan cari taksi buat kesono. Hehehe... Kan judulnya mo wikenan murah meriah ne... N bener aja ga jauh. Cuman sktr 15rb perak. Niwei, pasar baru emg seru klo jadi tempat belanja. Klo cuman liat2 or foto2 biasa aja lah. Cuman emg banyak yg jual jajanan murah meriah gt. Kaya kue pancung yang slama ini susah banget nyarinya.hehehe... Trus lmyn adem juga. Krna pasarnya ketutup. Oh iya baru tau juga klo di pasar baru ada Gramedia. Akhirnya numpang baca n selesai deh satu bukunya “Thibault Gregoire” yg judulnya “One Day in Jakarta”. Sebenernya bukan buku bacaan juga sih hehehhe... isinya sebenarnya foto2 Jakarta selama 24 jam. Si fotografernya menggambarkan Jakarta tiap jamnya melalui hasil jepretan. Keren!
Selesai numpang ngadem di Gramedia cabs ke halte busway didepan pasar baru. Emmm... no idea where I should go actually. Tp biasalah.. klo dah mentok gini kepikirannya pasti ke daerah Kota Tua. Ehheheh... Sayangnya buswaynya ga dateng2... Smntara antrian dah kaya ngantri sembako di tahun 70an aja (agak lebaih ni perumpamaannya). Akhirnya bermodalkan rute busway dari agenda gratisan (hehehehhe) kayanya Halte monas ga jauh ne. Udah satu koridor lagi ama Halte Kota. Akhirnya dari pasar baru naik taksi lagi de ke halte monas. Hahahhahah....
Singkat cerita nyampe de didaerah Kota Tua. Trnyata kalau dah sore disini malah makin rame. Museum sih udah tutup. Tp sepanjang jalan makin rame yang buka warung tenda. Pengamennya juga lebih banyak. N maennya bagus. Nongkrong di pinggiran sambil nonton yang ngamen n foto2 aja udah asik. Hehehhe... akhirnya sambil makan burger n NGEBOT (nge – teh botol maksudnya...) alias minum teh botol, ngobrol deh ama ibu yang jualan teh botolnya.
Me: biasanya rame sampe jam brp bu klo sbtu mgg gini?

Ibu: bisa sampe jam 4 pagi neng. Tapi klo hari biasa si sepi bgt..

Me: jualannya dari jam brp bu? Ibu: klo sabtu mgg si dari pagi juga enak buat jualan. Tapi klo hari biasa si dagang paling dari sore aja neng (dalam hati: enak bener ne si Ibu. Wong aku aja tiap hari mati2an buat ga males bgn pagi buat ngantor eh si ibu bisa kerja dari sore L )

Me: dapetnya lumayan bu? (dasar auditor kepo. Pgn tau aja urusan orang..hahahahah)

Ibu: aduh neng klo hari biasa buat dptin 100rb aja susah bgt. Tp libur gini, ibu mah ga sombong. Bisa dapet sampe 300rb (ibu ngomong dgn bangganya). Tapi ibu biayain hidup anak ibu ama cucu. Anak ibu ga mau diajak dagang. Katanya ga bakat. Trus milih kawin. Eh.. ga lama kawin suaminya masuk penjara karna narkoba. Abis bebas ga lama masuk penjara lagi. Gara2 ngebunuh. Sampe skrg masih dipenjara. Anak2 ibu yang lain ga bisa diarepin. Malah kadang mreka yang minta duit ke ibu. Suami ibu dah ga da. Kadang duitnya ga cukup. Tapi ibu sih masi bisa idup sampe sekarang... (ibunya ngomong ringan aja...)

Me: Oh gt ya bu.... (sambil nelan ludah.... )
Akhirnya si ibu trus nyerocos soal susahnya cari duit. Udah ga bisa komen lagi. Cuman cengar-cengir aja dengerin si ibunya curhat sambil basi-basi nyeletuk. Abis itu pamit deh ke ibunya. Sambil ga lupa bilang smoga dagangannya laku keras. Si ibu cuman senyum2 seneng sambil bilang “hati-hati ya neng...” ck...ck...
Hehheheh... This place always gives me a story. Iseng2 coba ngaliin penghasilannya si ibu. Lets say tiap wiken dapet 300rb.Plus hari biasa dapat 100rb. Brarti total penghasilan sebulan sktr Rp 4,400,000. Tp itu kan blm itung modalnya. Jualan teh botol mah untungnya ga nyampe stghnya kali. Let’s say si ibu profitnya ¼ dari total harga. Brarti sebulan duit yang si ibu dapet sktr Rp 1,100,000. Hemm... trus si ibu biayain idup 3 org. Jd seorang jatahnya sktr Rp 367,000 sebulan. Whaaaattttt??????
Tiba2 jadi sakit kepala ne... heheheheh... Duit sgitu yang bagi sbagian orang kantoran bisa abis pas skali jalan waktu wiken doang. Kurang malah. Wong managerku dikantor yang lama beli sepatu sbiji bisa sampe 8 juta! Kalo gt satu pasang sepatu bos bisa buat ngasi makan sktr 21 org slama sebulan klo duitnya dikasi sama si ibu. Hahahhahah... Miris yak???
Tiap jalan ke Kota Tua emg slalu aja dpt crita gini. Dulu prnah ngobrol ama anak2 pengemisnya, skrg ngobrol ama si ibu. Semuanya ujung2nya sama. Intinya ngajarin buat lbh bersyukur ama hidup. Duit emang bukan sgala2nya sih... Tp idup bakal jauh lebih susah kalo ga pnya duit! Wong hidup kaya skrg aja masi suka ngeluh. No job satisfaction lah, temen2 ga asik lah, ga pnya pacar lah (lohhhh??hehehhe), pgn beli ini itu tp ga pnya duit, org2 deket kadang nyebelin....bnyk aja yg bikin gampang kesel. Klo diingetin setidaknya bersyukur masi pnya penghasilan bagus ehh... malah bilang “duit bukan segalanya”. Klo diingetin bersyukur masi pnya orang2 deket yg peduli malah bilang “tp mreka suka nyebelin!”
Mgkn baru brasa kalo ngadepin kondisi si ibu. Duit cuman sgitu plus kluarga dipenjara krna ngebunuh pula. Kondisi ky skrg aja masi suka manyun. Apalagi diposisi si ibu. Hehehheheh.... Yeah... kondisi si ibu si mgkn bkn yg paling tragis yak..... Pasti masi bnyk lagi disana yang lbh susah idupnya. Tapi banyak bgt juga yg lebih nyaman hidupnya. Hahhahahha....
Sepanjang jalan pulang jd senyum2 sendiri. Mikir how “colorfull” this life. Sambil ngingetin diri, kalo idup emang warni-warni. Ada susahnya ada senangnya. Susah ama senang juga relatif buat semua orang. Jadi smua balik ke kita mau gimana ngebawainnya.
Balik dari Kota sengaja ambil rute muter2 gajebo. Hehehehhe.... Sengaja naik busway keliling2 mpe brenti di halte Pulo Gadung. Hahhahah... Akhirnya menginjakkan kaki juga diterminal ini. Pengen poto2 tapi takut dipalakin ama premannya. Kan terminallnya terkenal gahar ni.hehehhehe... Dari Pulo Gadung balik ke kosan. Masi sambil nginget2 si ibu yang jualan Teh Botol. That place always gives me a story. Kapan-kapan kalau kesana lagi, pasti dapat cerita seru lagi. Hehehhehe....

The "almost four years" story

It wasn’t started from me. It was you offering me something one day. The day where finally I decided to pay attention to you more.

Yes it was me who finally decided want to know you more. Don’t blame me if I’m good in research ;p, able to utilize the technology ;p and finally know you more than I expected. I even never imagine I would be come that far.

Don’t blame me if then I become kind of obsessed. It was you who never “appreciate” what I’ve “done”. I know all of them were so absurd and questionable, but Hey…! I was trying hard there. With all of the idiocy and strength I have off course…;p

Yes it was me that after quiet a long time, after I thought I’ve healed from all of those things, suddenly want to know what’s up with you. I was not that serious at that moment. I thought I did it just to kill my time.

It was not my fault off course. That I find out you worked in the same city with me. Worked so close in my world and place, met you again in exactly the same moment and condition just like the old stuff. I never asked for being that close to you. This life brought me there. I even cried every night for living my life at that moment. I didn’t think that way of life is a blessed. Even that way of life made me like “closer” to you. It was life that put me there. Giving me kind of hope, imagination, wishes that made me thought you are worth to fight.

I gave my effort! Just to make you remember all of the old stuff. I went further to your world. Know more, more and more. I got a sad news one day. Sad news that made me decided to went away from this craziness. But it didn’t stay long. Cause my heart could not stop singing! It told me to fight and enjoy these craziness. And I won! You changed and she gave up. Ahahhahaha…. Seemed like my doubt was answered. I thought it was me who changed you;p Ahahahhah…What a brave thought. Okay the truth was “I hope it was me who changed you”.

I kept that hope. Become more serious this time. Cause this feeling started driving my crazy! I want to make it clear. What is in your head actually. I prayed. I wanted to finish this craziness and made it become a real fun and worth story. I prayed. I prayed, prayed and prayed.

HE gave me the answer. It wasn’t me. It was her… The other “her”.

A part of me told me to still fight. But the other part told me it’s over. And deep down I know yes… It’s over.

Almost 4 years I guess. God allow me to keep you in my mind. Although now I’m not sure. Was it with HIS permission or just me that so stubborn… But this heart can’t stop singing at that moment. That’s the only reason I have…

Is this just a way to the other story? Or is this just a story of life that teach me and strengthen me?

Yes it wasn’t me. And deep down in my heart I know. It’s over….
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Dan dengan bodohnya masi pengen nyanyi “ looking back the way we first met. I can not escape and I can not forget. Baby you’re the one. You still turn me on. You can make me whole again…”