THAT PLACE ALWAYS GIVES ME A STORY

I started that day with some plans. Dimulai dengan gajebo-nya rencana buat survey tempat ulang tahun sampai rencana ke Depok but on the way all of them get cancelled. Jadilah siang menjelang sore di hari Sabtu kelabu sedikit pusing mau jalan kemana. Considering that I’m not kind of person who like to spend the wiken just by staying at my room, I start googling what are the places most people visit kalau lagi jln2 sendirian. Yah emang ga selalu bisa ngandelin orang lain bukan...;p Sedikit pusing nyari tempatnya. Karena mall2 uda pasti dicoret dari list. Not kind of mall person nih.hehehhe... Bermodalkan info dari internet plus sdkt niat (hehehhe) kayanya seru juga kalo ke pasar baru. Napa pasar baru? Slain belum pernah muter2 disana (yea..yea... you may laugh...) klo ga salah didepannya ada halte busway. Jadi klo mo lanjut jln lagi bisa hemat. Ho ho...
The problem is, I have no idea how to get there. Hehhehe... bermodalkan ingatan klo pasar baru itu ga jauh dari kosan, akhirnya dari kosan cari taksi buat kesono. Hehehe... Kan judulnya mo wikenan murah meriah ne... N bener aja ga jauh. Cuman sktr 15rb perak. Niwei, pasar baru emg seru klo jadi tempat belanja. Klo cuman liat2 or foto2 biasa aja lah. Cuman emg banyak yg jual jajanan murah meriah gt. Kaya kue pancung yang slama ini susah banget nyarinya.hehehe... Trus lmyn adem juga. Krna pasarnya ketutup. Oh iya baru tau juga klo di pasar baru ada Gramedia. Akhirnya numpang baca n selesai deh satu bukunya “Thibault Gregoire” yg judulnya “One Day in Jakarta”. Sebenernya bukan buku bacaan juga sih hehehhe... isinya sebenarnya foto2 Jakarta selama 24 jam. Si fotografernya menggambarkan Jakarta tiap jamnya melalui hasil jepretan. Keren!
Selesai numpang ngadem di Gramedia cabs ke halte busway didepan pasar baru. Emmm... no idea where I should go actually. Tp biasalah.. klo dah mentok gini kepikirannya pasti ke daerah Kota Tua. Ehheheh... Sayangnya buswaynya ga dateng2... Smntara antrian dah kaya ngantri sembako di tahun 70an aja (agak lebaih ni perumpamaannya). Akhirnya bermodalkan rute busway dari agenda gratisan (hehehehhe) kayanya Halte monas ga jauh ne. Udah satu koridor lagi ama Halte Kota. Akhirnya dari pasar baru naik taksi lagi de ke halte monas. Hahahhahah....
Singkat cerita nyampe de didaerah Kota Tua. Trnyata kalau dah sore disini malah makin rame. Museum sih udah tutup. Tp sepanjang jalan makin rame yang buka warung tenda. Pengamennya juga lebih banyak. N maennya bagus. Nongkrong di pinggiran sambil nonton yang ngamen n foto2 aja udah asik. Hehehhe... akhirnya sambil makan burger n NGEBOT (nge – teh botol maksudnya...) alias minum teh botol, ngobrol deh ama ibu yang jualan teh botolnya.
Me: biasanya rame sampe jam brp bu klo sbtu mgg gini?

Ibu: bisa sampe jam 4 pagi neng. Tapi klo hari biasa si sepi bgt..

Me: jualannya dari jam brp bu? Ibu: klo sabtu mgg si dari pagi juga enak buat jualan. Tapi klo hari biasa si dagang paling dari sore aja neng (dalam hati: enak bener ne si Ibu. Wong aku aja tiap hari mati2an buat ga males bgn pagi buat ngantor eh si ibu bisa kerja dari sore L )

Me: dapetnya lumayan bu? (dasar auditor kepo. Pgn tau aja urusan orang..hahahahah)

Ibu: aduh neng klo hari biasa buat dptin 100rb aja susah bgt. Tp libur gini, ibu mah ga sombong. Bisa dapet sampe 300rb (ibu ngomong dgn bangganya). Tapi ibu biayain hidup anak ibu ama cucu. Anak ibu ga mau diajak dagang. Katanya ga bakat. Trus milih kawin. Eh.. ga lama kawin suaminya masuk penjara karna narkoba. Abis bebas ga lama masuk penjara lagi. Gara2 ngebunuh. Sampe skrg masih dipenjara. Anak2 ibu yang lain ga bisa diarepin. Malah kadang mreka yang minta duit ke ibu. Suami ibu dah ga da. Kadang duitnya ga cukup. Tapi ibu sih masi bisa idup sampe sekarang... (ibunya ngomong ringan aja...)

Me: Oh gt ya bu.... (sambil nelan ludah.... )
Akhirnya si ibu trus nyerocos soal susahnya cari duit. Udah ga bisa komen lagi. Cuman cengar-cengir aja dengerin si ibunya curhat sambil basi-basi nyeletuk. Abis itu pamit deh ke ibunya. Sambil ga lupa bilang smoga dagangannya laku keras. Si ibu cuman senyum2 seneng sambil bilang “hati-hati ya neng...” ck...ck...
Hehheheh... This place always gives me a story. Iseng2 coba ngaliin penghasilannya si ibu. Lets say tiap wiken dapet 300rb.Plus hari biasa dapat 100rb. Brarti total penghasilan sebulan sktr Rp 4,400,000. Tp itu kan blm itung modalnya. Jualan teh botol mah untungnya ga nyampe stghnya kali. Let’s say si ibu profitnya ¼ dari total harga. Brarti sebulan duit yang si ibu dapet sktr Rp 1,100,000. Hemm... trus si ibu biayain idup 3 org. Jd seorang jatahnya sktr Rp 367,000 sebulan. Whaaaattttt??????
Tiba2 jadi sakit kepala ne... heheheheh... Duit sgitu yang bagi sbagian orang kantoran bisa abis pas skali jalan waktu wiken doang. Kurang malah. Wong managerku dikantor yang lama beli sepatu sbiji bisa sampe 8 juta! Kalo gt satu pasang sepatu bos bisa buat ngasi makan sktr 21 org slama sebulan klo duitnya dikasi sama si ibu. Hahahhahah... Miris yak???
Tiap jalan ke Kota Tua emg slalu aja dpt crita gini. Dulu prnah ngobrol ama anak2 pengemisnya, skrg ngobrol ama si ibu. Semuanya ujung2nya sama. Intinya ngajarin buat lbh bersyukur ama hidup. Duit emang bukan sgala2nya sih... Tp idup bakal jauh lebih susah kalo ga pnya duit! Wong hidup kaya skrg aja masi suka ngeluh. No job satisfaction lah, temen2 ga asik lah, ga pnya pacar lah (lohhhh??hehehhe), pgn beli ini itu tp ga pnya duit, org2 deket kadang nyebelin....bnyk aja yg bikin gampang kesel. Klo diingetin setidaknya bersyukur masi pnya penghasilan bagus ehh... malah bilang “duit bukan segalanya”. Klo diingetin bersyukur masi pnya orang2 deket yg peduli malah bilang “tp mreka suka nyebelin!”
Mgkn baru brasa kalo ngadepin kondisi si ibu. Duit cuman sgitu plus kluarga dipenjara krna ngebunuh pula. Kondisi ky skrg aja masi suka manyun. Apalagi diposisi si ibu. Hehehheheh.... Yeah... kondisi si ibu si mgkn bkn yg paling tragis yak..... Pasti masi bnyk lagi disana yang lbh susah idupnya. Tapi banyak bgt juga yg lebih nyaman hidupnya. Hahhahahha....
Sepanjang jalan pulang jd senyum2 sendiri. Mikir how “colorfull” this life. Sambil ngingetin diri, kalo idup emang warni-warni. Ada susahnya ada senangnya. Susah ama senang juga relatif buat semua orang. Jadi smua balik ke kita mau gimana ngebawainnya.
Balik dari Kota sengaja ambil rute muter2 gajebo. Hehehehhe.... Sengaja naik busway keliling2 mpe brenti di halte Pulo Gadung. Hahhahah... Akhirnya menginjakkan kaki juga diterminal ini. Pengen poto2 tapi takut dipalakin ama premannya. Kan terminallnya terkenal gahar ni.hehehhehe... Dari Pulo Gadung balik ke kosan. Masi sambil nginget2 si ibu yang jualan Teh Botol. That place always gives me a story. Kapan-kapan kalau kesana lagi, pasti dapat cerita seru lagi. Hehehhehe....

The "almost four years" story

It wasn’t started from me. It was you offering me something one day. The day where finally I decided to pay attention to you more.

Yes it was me who finally decided want to know you more. Don’t blame me if I’m good in research ;p, able to utilize the technology ;p and finally know you more than I expected. I even never imagine I would be come that far.

Don’t blame me if then I become kind of obsessed. It was you who never “appreciate” what I’ve “done”. I know all of them were so absurd and questionable, but Hey…! I was trying hard there. With all of the idiocy and strength I have off course…;p

Yes it was me that after quiet a long time, after I thought I’ve healed from all of those things, suddenly want to know what’s up with you. I was not that serious at that moment. I thought I did it just to kill my time.

It was not my fault off course. That I find out you worked in the same city with me. Worked so close in my world and place, met you again in exactly the same moment and condition just like the old stuff. I never asked for being that close to you. This life brought me there. I even cried every night for living my life at that moment. I didn’t think that way of life is a blessed. Even that way of life made me like “closer” to you. It was life that put me there. Giving me kind of hope, imagination, wishes that made me thought you are worth to fight.

I gave my effort! Just to make you remember all of the old stuff. I went further to your world. Know more, more and more. I got a sad news one day. Sad news that made me decided to went away from this craziness. But it didn’t stay long. Cause my heart could not stop singing! It told me to fight and enjoy these craziness. And I won! You changed and she gave up. Ahahhahaha…. Seemed like my doubt was answered. I thought it was me who changed you;p Ahahahhah…What a brave thought. Okay the truth was “I hope it was me who changed you”.

I kept that hope. Become more serious this time. Cause this feeling started driving my crazy! I want to make it clear. What is in your head actually. I prayed. I wanted to finish this craziness and made it become a real fun and worth story. I prayed. I prayed, prayed and prayed.

HE gave me the answer. It wasn’t me. It was her… The other “her”.

A part of me told me to still fight. But the other part told me it’s over. And deep down I know yes… It’s over.

Almost 4 years I guess. God allow me to keep you in my mind. Although now I’m not sure. Was it with HIS permission or just me that so stubborn… But this heart can’t stop singing at that moment. That’s the only reason I have…

Is this just a way to the other story? Or is this just a story of life that teach me and strengthen me?

Yes it wasn’t me. And deep down in my heart I know. It’s over….
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Dan dengan bodohnya masi pengen nyanyi “ looking back the way we first met. I can not escape and I can not forget. Baby you’re the one. You still turn me on. You can make me whole again…”

S.T.A.R

Lagi ngoprek2 koleksi lagu lama terus ketemu lagu ini. Jadi inget ama filmnya yg uda lmyn jadul.hehhehe

When I tried to hear this song carefully, some words missed :(. I admitted that I’m not that excellent in listening, hehhehe… Ngerasa sayang krna kynya kata2nya bagus benjet, I tried to search for the lyrics and… emang ga salah. Baguuuusss BGT!

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What cha wanna be - when you grow up
What cha gonna do - when your time is up
What cha gonna say - when things go wrong
What cha wanna do - when you're on your own
There's a road - long and winding
The lights are blindin' - but it gets there
Don't give up - don't look back
There's a silver linin' - it's out there somewhere
Everybody wants an answer - everybody needs a friend
We all need a shinin' star on which we can depend
N' so tonight we're gonna wish upon a star We never wished upon before - (to find what you'reLooking for)
There'll be times - in your lifeYa when you' be dancin' n' shit - but you ain't gettin it
But don't get disillusioned - no, don't expect too much'
cause if what you have is all you can get - just keep on Tryin' - it just ain't happened yet
Everybody wants ta be winner - everybody has a dream
We all need a shinin' star when things ain't what they seem
So tonight we're gonna wish upon a star We never wished upon before - (gotta get where you'reHeaded for)
Everybody wants some kindness - everybody needs a break
We all need a shinin' star when things get hard to take
So tonight we're gonna wish upon a starWe never wished upon before
*STAR>> Bryan Adams*
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Beautiful songs! Emang hidup bgitu bukan? ;p

That’s life honey… FACE IT!!

You ruin my plans, take away all of my dreams, make them not part of me anymore!!!
Yaa..ya… But I don’t’ think I ever promise you to make all of them come true, so I don’t owe anything, right?
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You turn my life to the different direction, so far far away from my first thought!!!
Emmm…. Still…. I never promise you that I will keep your way stays like your first thought… Am I right?
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You shocked me with everything happened in my life everyday, seems like something worse has been prepared behind the doors and ready to show up every single day!!!
Oh dear… Should I repeat it? I never promise you that you will never face any difficulties and your day will be free of the them, right?
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Life owe you nothing. If you fight and fight for your dreams and thought, it’s just part of your story of life. Be thankful when the story ends like your version, and just face it when it ends in different version. ‘Cause that’s life honey.. Face it!! :)