The "almost four years" story

It wasn’t started from me. It was you offering me something one day. The day where finally I decided to pay attention to you more.

Yes it was me who finally decided want to know you more. Don’t blame me if I’m good in research ;p, able to utilize the technology ;p and finally know you more than I expected. I even never imagine I would be come that far.

Don’t blame me if then I become kind of obsessed. It was you who never “appreciate” what I’ve “done”. I know all of them were so absurd and questionable, but Hey…! I was trying hard there. With all of the idiocy and strength I have off course…;p

Yes it was me that after quiet a long time, after I thought I’ve healed from all of those things, suddenly want to know what’s up with you. I was not that serious at that moment. I thought I did it just to kill my time.

It was not my fault off course. That I find out you worked in the same city with me. Worked so close in my world and place, met you again in exactly the same moment and condition just like the old stuff. I never asked for being that close to you. This life brought me there. I even cried every night for living my life at that moment. I didn’t think that way of life is a blessed. Even that way of life made me like “closer” to you. It was life that put me there. Giving me kind of hope, imagination, wishes that made me thought you are worth to fight.

I gave my effort! Just to make you remember all of the old stuff. I went further to your world. Know more, more and more. I got a sad news one day. Sad news that made me decided to went away from this craziness. But it didn’t stay long. Cause my heart could not stop singing! It told me to fight and enjoy these craziness. And I won! You changed and she gave up. Ahahhahaha…. Seemed like my doubt was answered. I thought it was me who changed you;p Ahahahhah…What a brave thought. Okay the truth was “I hope it was me who changed you”.

I kept that hope. Become more serious this time. Cause this feeling started driving my crazy! I want to make it clear. What is in your head actually. I prayed. I wanted to finish this craziness and made it become a real fun and worth story. I prayed. I prayed, prayed and prayed.

HE gave me the answer. It wasn’t me. It was her… The other “her”.

A part of me told me to still fight. But the other part told me it’s over. And deep down I know yes… It’s over.

Almost 4 years I guess. God allow me to keep you in my mind. Although now I’m not sure. Was it with HIS permission or just me that so stubborn… But this heart can’t stop singing at that moment. That’s the only reason I have…

Is this just a way to the other story? Or is this just a story of life that teach me and strengthen me?

Yes it wasn’t me. And deep down in my heart I know. It’s over….
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Dan dengan bodohnya masi pengen nyanyi “ looking back the way we first met. I can not escape and I can not forget. Baby you’re the one. You still turn me on. You can make me whole again…”

S.T.A.R

Lagi ngoprek2 koleksi lagu lama terus ketemu lagu ini. Jadi inget ama filmnya yg uda lmyn jadul.hehhehe

When I tried to hear this song carefully, some words missed :(. I admitted that I’m not that excellent in listening, hehhehe… Ngerasa sayang krna kynya kata2nya bagus benjet, I tried to search for the lyrics and… emang ga salah. Baguuuusss BGT!

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What cha wanna be - when you grow up
What cha gonna do - when your time is up
What cha gonna say - when things go wrong
What cha wanna do - when you're on your own
There's a road - long and winding
The lights are blindin' - but it gets there
Don't give up - don't look back
There's a silver linin' - it's out there somewhere
Everybody wants an answer - everybody needs a friend
We all need a shinin' star on which we can depend
N' so tonight we're gonna wish upon a star We never wished upon before - (to find what you'reLooking for)
There'll be times - in your lifeYa when you' be dancin' n' shit - but you ain't gettin it
But don't get disillusioned - no, don't expect too much'
cause if what you have is all you can get - just keep on Tryin' - it just ain't happened yet
Everybody wants ta be winner - everybody has a dream
We all need a shinin' star when things ain't what they seem
So tonight we're gonna wish upon a star We never wished upon before - (gotta get where you'reHeaded for)
Everybody wants some kindness - everybody needs a break
We all need a shinin' star when things get hard to take
So tonight we're gonna wish upon a starWe never wished upon before
*STAR>> Bryan Adams*
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Beautiful songs! Emang hidup bgitu bukan? ;p

That’s life honey… FACE IT!!

You ruin my plans, take away all of my dreams, make them not part of me anymore!!!
Yaa..ya… But I don’t’ think I ever promise you to make all of them come true, so I don’t owe anything, right?
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You turn my life to the different direction, so far far away from my first thought!!!
Emmm…. Still…. I never promise you that I will keep your way stays like your first thought… Am I right?
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You shocked me with everything happened in my life everyday, seems like something worse has been prepared behind the doors and ready to show up every single day!!!
Oh dear… Should I repeat it? I never promise you that you will never face any difficulties and your day will be free of the them, right?
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Life owe you nothing. If you fight and fight for your dreams and thought, it’s just part of your story of life. Be thankful when the story ends like your version, and just face it when it ends in different version. ‘Cause that’s life honey.. Face it!! :)